omg i took a chem test today and i thought it was relatively easy, but then after the test my class was like freaking out about how hard it was and how they guessed on every question. the smartest girl in our grade said she did badly and two people in the other honors class cried while taking it. now i'm really paranoid that i like, bombed it :( i also feel really bad that i had advantage in using a friend of a friend's similar copy of the test from last year to get a feel for the way the questions would be asked and to take a practice test of my own. gfhjkdfahsldkjf

also my band director has the worst body odor ever and my being a flutist puts me right up front and in the front line of exposure to his stench. it's getting to the point where i gag while playing. ALSO my bff sits next to me, and both of our crushes sit behind us, but for tonight's concert they were moved to the opposite end of the stage. i was really looking forward to casual chitchat :( boo

tl;dr chemistry test related paranoia and smelly band directors and said smelly band teachers relocating my crush's section

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the fact that it's raining and not snowing rn

patrick stump is way too skinny now

i really want to dye my hair from this blondish-brown i have naturally to a dark dark red. but every time i get to the store to buy the dye my mom is always like "um lets think about this a while longer" and blows me off. >:| i am about to just buy it whether she says yes or not.

also, my fucking cousin that lives with my dad. he is on his fucking own now. i am no longer going to bring him to fucking parties that MY friends are throwing/trying to introduce him to MY friends/find him people to hang out with if he treats me the way he does. the most recent incident was that he flipped out and started screaming, and telling me to "SHUT THE FUCK UP" because i yelled at him for backing up without looking and there was someone parked right behind us. he almost hit the car and i was like "DUDE! aaron there is a car right behind us!" and i got "FUCK YOU! SHUT THE FUCK UP NOW!". i swear if the car hadnt been moving i would have kicked him in the back of the head. i was so pissed off, i was like "FUCK YOU! I AM NOT HELPING YOU ANYMORE. FUCK YOU." seriously he knows exactly what button to hit to fucking piss me off. this happened saturday night and its still pissing me off. and not just that but he tells me the other day he invited this girl i don't like what-so-ever to come to my boyfriend's show. IS HE FUCKING INSANE?! i mean she didn't come but still. and now he's telling me he's talking to her again and wants to hang out with her. wtf ever. he better not be that big of a dumb ass to have her over when i'm there. fuck, i swear he is the biggest jackass/dumbass i have EVER met.

tl;dr my cousin is a dumbass/jackass most the time.

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My english teacher hasn't finished grading all my stuff. I would like 5% more so I at least can say I passed english 102 with a D. But I'm not exactly proud of it.

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my pharmacy finally got approval from my insurance to cover lexapro, and maybe it's all in my head, but i'm on 2 types of otc painkillers, a shitton of wellbutrin and anticonvulsant, and i feel so drugged and dull dnw to add any more :(

I just encountered someone who not only tried to argue that skin cancer didn't come from the sun, but that cancer could be cured by eating organic food and taking your vitamins. Because cancer is curable.

She also told me she hoped my mom would get cancer and then proceeded to inform me that I was the crazy one.

How do these people survive in real life?

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Jamie Sue Caudy
Yea! Good luck when you get cancer.
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Me
Thanks! I'll probably have much better luck with a real treatment. And if I die from it, oh well. I would rather go out like that than desperately clutching the idea that a calcium supplement could cure me of it.
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Jamie Sue Caudy
Its probably for the best if you die from it.